Let's Start Talking About LOVE : Greetings

That Christmas greeting I will wait forever to get.

Or that Christmas greeting I wont have to wait to get anymore, karena udah pasti ga bakal ada.

That Birthday greeting I will wait forever to get.

Or that Birthday greeting I wont have to wait to get anymore, karena udah pasti ga bakal diucapin.

While writing this, I think of 2 persons.

Yang satu, udah ada di surga.

Yang satu lagi, masih ada di dunia, tapi berasa udah hilang gatau kemana.

This one keeps coming to my head whenever I have a special moment I'd like to receive a greeting from him. This one keeps disturbing my mind while I check any of this one's account, and there isnt any message for me. This one keeps disturbing my memory in which he stays. This one keeps disturbing my ears for the voice this one had, saying one or two words that I also always remember.

This one keeps disturbing my mouth to pout that he disappears. This one keeps disturbing my hands to type or write anything related to him, just like what I'm doing now. And this one keeps disturbing my heart, for a reason that everyone surely knows.

This one doesn't totally disappear.

This one is still there. But doesn't realize where I'm standing. Doesn't look at where I'm waving.

Doesn't care about what had happened, what is happening, and what will happen involving me.

I'm not pitiful. I'm just feeling sorry for my self. Why does everyone say I'm that clever... While in fact, I'm that foolish.

I don't wait anymore. I just keep in my heart, things that's supposed to be kept in my heart.

Lalu ada tahap di mana gue menyesali ketidakmaksimalan gue while this one realizes myself.

Why didn't I capture any of this one's greeting? Why didn't I show that I miss this one more than this one maybe misses me?

DUAAAAR! Jadi melankolis gini. maklum udah kelas 2 SMA.

Ini kedua kalinya gw galau masalah cowo loh *catet*

and thanks to this blog, as a virtual diary, which is truly functioning as a diary.

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To get myself updated : on my birthday this year, January 4th, 2014, I still do not get that greeting I'm waiting for. Well I'm going to wait and not wish him a happy birthday until I totally moved on from him, and finally I don't wait anymore so am going to wish him a veeery happy birthday :D